Thursday, February 26, 2015

Take Me Home

Permeating the River Delta
With catfish in my mouth
You slink along Eudora ' s path
Worn
Slavery
Segregation
Civil rights
Poverty
King Cotton is a sprouting
To the distinct voices
And cries
I hear the blues
In rollicking juke joints
Along that same Mississippi River
Where I was born
Collard greens
Fried okra
Neck bones
Emmet Till cries again
From the graves of injustice
There's more to come
But I'm too tired
To read Falkner tonight
We march on Saturday.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Getting Technical

Soft voices
Fluid movement
Improvisation
Devotion to you
The capstone awaits
Managing conflict
Embracing change
Anticipating love
Individualized attention
Maximizing the distance
Calmly dynamic
Our successful ensemble
Exploring all over
Imaginations
In slow motion
Becoming aware
The way you look
The way you think
The way you feel
Moving
From the death trap to you
Applications encouraged
Apply early.

Monday, February 23, 2015

Faint Smiles

Behind her closed eyes
An infinite number
Of phantasms floated
One by one
Disappearing into the arid air
He extended his arm
Embracing her curves
And stroking her back
There had been girls
Before
Women he had slept with
But she was different
Somehow
He wanted her to be happy
As he gazed in her eyes
He saw the incarnation 
Of geishas or was it Mother Theresa?
Having forgotten
Taking her in his arms
Draining her of her strength
She didn't resist
The first time they met
He had slept with her
Unlike the icky local girls
She moved with him
Hearts aligned
While her hips thrust forward
Came against him
Simultaneously
He strove to quiet himself
Reluctant to let her go
Wanting more
Falling asleep with her loose hair
Held tightly in his hand
Both breathed peacefully
With faint smiles on their lips.

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Monarch Whispers

Why am I even fucking here
God seems to be wasting
A life on me
I am not living
Only surviving
Instead of thriving
Doing everything right
Minus a mistake or two
Out of the fog
Seeing clearly
The shit I can't take
Anymore
With your almost fatherly kisses
You wish to adorn me with
Hawaiian leis
Dobbing moisture on my lips
From the rim of the glass
You circle with your pointer finger
Making melodies
Where there is no saxophone
Commanding silence
As we watch the game
I used to think
You would gather me in your arms
As I collapsed onto your chest
A lifetime of weeping spent
Before you dried my cheeks
And made me laugh again
Who am I
Who are you
I am me
My self esteem looks distorted
But it is strong
Stronger than ever
And I leave you now
My wet complexion
Drenched cheeks
Bloodshot eyes
I am nothing

Sunday, February 8, 2015

Ludicrous Existence

Stalking us everyday
Although we acknowledge
And accept
And weep
When we grow accustomed
To one's presence
Words
Voice
Thoughts
Laughter
Near or afar
And it swells and disappears
Sharply
Or like a balloon floating up off the white settee
Grieving begins
Takes over
Sinking us into the abysmal depths
Of depression
The hungry, dank existence
Running parallel with the Valley of Ashes
Like the River Styx
The wailing of souls
Lost
Grieving that which is still alive
Unconscionable cruelty
Misunderstood
Forsaken wench of perpetual desire
Our loved ones
Not forever
Move to pause
Daring you to see past the error
Of our ways
Trust
Embrace
Forgive
Celebrate
Your love
Give it freely
Once again
Steadfast
Eternal
Golden
Despite the loss we feel
We are among the living
And deep inside me
You shall live forever

Ephemeral Heights

Fate may set us free
Do you believe?
Set aside preconceived ideals
Opening up
To freedoms within
Catholic hypocrisies
of what is righteous
And what is a sin
True believers
That is what we are
Beyond the here
Beyond the now
Thoughts drift afar
If I reach out tonight
Extended past the chorus
And the refrain
Will this love that I can't contain
Be realized
Or will it shatter
Destroying the few things I had
Standing in the rain
Longing to be tamed
Living without
Living in doubt
Is no way to live at all
Desiring beyond
What the eyes can see
Once the restraints are loosened
Tighten the chains that hold me down
Let me be me.

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Hard To Like You

You said you were falling for me
I was your British goddess
Joining you for that cup of tea
I don't know how to convince her
It's inexplicable
I don't know how to move on from here
And get over someone as notorious, arrogant,  and charismatic as you.
It isn't hard to follow you
But what is the price
Just a wartime souvenir
That's what I am to you
Leave me with my pulp fiction and lingerie
Don't know how you got the way you are
You're screwed up and talented
Looking like a dumb bloke
You and I cautiously enjoying our company
I only know I am better
Better than before
I never belonged where you are
I know that now
Fiction mistaken for reality
Distorted visions
I wake up with the sunrise between us
Thinking I need you
My heart is broken
Losing you over and over
Whenever we're not together
Life is strange
Dallas awaits.

Monday, February 2, 2015

The Horses Came

Galloping they did
Into my room last night
Staying with me
Holding
Listening
Consoling
My lips not moving
But the equine understanding
Choking on the butterscotch candy
Being bullied at school
The football quarterback I assured
My parents of his honorable intentions
Until he took the lamb away
Sitting in the empty theatre
You know I'm gay right?
Sure thing
No hesitation
He was murdered
In Lansing, Iowa
The same town my father grew up
In that trailer
Dirt poor
Just like Joey
And Megan
And their mom who was bludgeoned
To death
Silent screams
From the park
Last breath
Trotting beside me
As the kaleidoscope of banshees exited
They're really gone
Fading out for good
Hoping they don't return
It's our one year anniversary my love
Feeling feverish still
Rosemary and Thyme
All that is left
From not so long ago
Fragrant and pure
My little pet
Do not be afraid
The past behind us
I love you.