Up My Sleeve

It's one of those times.
None of this is pleasant.
Long and nauseating
As I face day after day
Trying to do what's best
For everyone involved
Yet failing
No longer free
Or supported
Harassed and alone
Intimidated
Exacerbated and disrespected
Personally
And professionally
Absolutely devastating
Unstable
Waning dedication
Fear
Climbing back into the hole
Like Alice
None of this makes sense.