I remember the shadow
Being out of it
Seeing world's you have never known about
Camping in Portland
With a man I had just met
Wanting to be loved
Feeling connected
But not in love
Loving
But not liking
Abusive
I don't remember much
Disassociation I think they call it
I remember him yelling at the warden
And me with my soul
Detached from my physical being
I remember walking
Away from the tent
Away from his truck
In the rain
He could have killed me
But he didn't
Too much gamma exposure
Or was it esoteric poetry
I feel like he drugged me
And penetrated me
But I don't remember
He caught me in the rain
Brought me back to the tent
Eventually I got away
Came back to Wisconsin
Never saw him again
My dad was right
This man was trouble
And I was his victim
But I lived to tell about it
Yet I remain silent
After all these years
In the fog
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