Risks, Benefits, and Friends

Low back pain

interrupting his
Sex life
Avoiding bedroom
encounters
Fearing more pain
No communication
His loss of interest
Strained
relationship
No
explanation
Just calling her a
bitch
If even that
Verbally
abusive
Especially when she
nags the termagant one
Failure
to provide
relief
The last resort
So much pain
The generator
and receiver
Placed under his skin
Leads right
above
the spinal cord
Transmitters accessible
Able to access
and control
Intensity
Optimal treatment
Fitting his needs
Relief from pain
More benefits
Fewer risks
Stimulating
Almost erotic
The sensation
Too sensitive
Blowing in his face
Never trying that before
Yet inadvertently
innocently
crossing the line
This feeling this device
Customized to fit
his needs
and mine
And now
Removed
Without warning

Imagining it gone

Missing
From his lower back
No more tingling
And taking up the heat
When he showers
Or rolling over in bed
It’s no longer there
No magnet
Or recharging
Normalcy
Today’s the day
The unexpected fucking day
Ender didn't know either
Or his wife
Or my husband
It won’t hurt a bit
No infection
But different
A feeling like
something is missing
Like a lost tooth
And a tongue gravitating to the
Missing spot
In your gums
Can’t find the tooth
That’s been lost
The feeling eventually passes
When a new tooth grows in
Tomorrow will be 28 days
And that feeling has yet to
Pass
With you
I keep looking for something
Your voice
Your writing
Your encouragement
Your laugh
Our friendship
But you’re not there
Anymore
And although I feign independence
I’m lost
Something is missing
That something is you
Unsuccessful trial
Battery dead
Weakness
Paralysis
Pain
Sexual dysfunction
Loss of bladder control
You’re really gone
You were the friend--
My family that I chose for
myself
I miss you.