Mortality

Show me mercy
Show me peace
Show me love
Show me compassion
Bring the dead to light
Do whatever it takes
To forgive me
Rewrite the story
The story of reality
I was lost in some other story
As a grown woman
One would have thought
I knew the difference between
Reality and fantasy
Shoulding myself every moment
As I eat or don't eat
As I wake or as I sleep
Drowning in a sea of illusion
Shouting hallelujahs from the rooftop
I wish
Trying not to feel the pain
My pain
Though it's not about me
Happy for your family's health and happiness
I am happy knowing you
To have known you
If only for ten months
And now
I stand before you
Broken
Barely breathing
Praying for forgiveness every day
Denial
Isolation
Anger
Bargaining
Acceptance