The Noose

Feeling like it's hopeless
The girl who lost a friendship
A wife who lost the trust in him
A husband who lost me
Whatever I had to offer
Just wanting friendship

But that option has been stripped

From me.
I want to believe
That none of this is worth dying for
But the rope may hang this week
I stand here with fears and failures.
I gotta believe
My soul will stop wandering
On and on and on it goes
I never have to be afraid
Now
Now that he is gone
The knot tightens.
Suffocation sets in.
Gasping for air
I cannot breathe
I have given up thinking of him

Though you may call me a hypocrite.

In some distant place
Why have you left me?
I sleep now. 
I am alone
Like I've always been.