Redemption

Despite a packed house
And laughter at my lines
My soul feels crushed
Heart is frail
What did I do wrong
In her eyes?
Can I have a second chance?
Please may I have a second chance?
My intentions are pure
Like the glistening snow
Beneath my window
I long for that opportunity
And will not disappoint
With a stranger such as he
Perhaps he did not communicate
That which crossed the line
Now that I know
Or I guess I can surmise
That which you need
I can be the righteous one
If he should feel weak
I can be the righteous one should he be tempted
Please take responsibility
And fight for our friendship,
Once you are able to
A friendship
I don't know if it will ever be possible
It will need to be repaired on so many levels
One with clear boundaries
Let me know redemption
Lost my will to fight
I don't think it's the Spotted Cow within me
I am yours.  I pray that I am not among the wicked
I question my morality each day
Tonight Job and I spent some time
Together
Let me be reborn
In thine image 
The Lord watcheth over me
If the path of destruction is far away,
Why is the annihilation so near?